Mum to two angel boys – 2 and 8, step-mother to two angel teenagers 15 and 17, bunny mum to an unbelievably fluffy and beautiful little bunny Sophie, list obsessed, cheese addicted, singing and dancing extraordinaire (completely talentless, but an extraordinaire none the less!).
I live in preeeeetty much a zoo. Our home is rarely quiet and our washing piles rarely under 3 metres in height.
I started Until Now in 2017 – I’d just had my second son and after being terrified that I’d end up with post natal depression a second time, I was amazed to find that things were actually ok. That I was! I wanted to talk about it – I wanted other mums to know that they weren’t alone if they were going through it, that there was a light at the end of the tunnel, and that it wasn’t inevitable that they’d end up back there if they ever decided they wanted to try again!
I wrote my heart out.
Then I rewrote it.
And then I rewrote it again.
I loved it, and I loved the way that putting the words down on a page helped me work through everything that had happened. It had been years since those darkest days, but after putting it down, I still felt lighter. Free even.
I kept writing and about 6 pieces in, my incredible husband created a website for me to put them into. I kept them private, until I was brave enough to hit that public button, and now here we are!
It’s a weird feeling, putting little pieces of your soul out for public consumption. Hitting ‘post’ is something that still gives me butterflies, even after all this time.
I don’t post with structured frequency. I’ve posted daily, I’ve taken huge breaks between posts, I’ve worried so much about the opinions of others that I’ve been unable to write at all at times, but I always come back. I love writing. It’s an outlet for me in a way I couldn’t have expected all that time ago now.
What you’ll find here are the stories of my life until now. Lists of the random thoughts I have in the shower, scatters of the little things I find in life that inspire me to be better, and personal essays on the hard times, the fun times, the struggles, the successes, the dark days and the light.
If this is your first visit, hey! Thanks for stopping by! I hope you enjoy your time here.
If you’re back, HI!
Thanks for all your love and support. And your patience when I sometimes disappear to find my magic again.